This past fall has been tough for me. I can't seem to fully get my feet under me in several areas including spiritually and, therefore, emotionally. I have had way more "meltdowns" (poor Chad) than I am prone to. I couldn't get to the Y consistently. I had to drop out of leading a women's group because of time constraints. I was still getting accustomed to a new job (mainly, new colleagues). I am leading a ministry at church which drains me more than it fills me. I have been forced to develop new friendships and, as I finally began to really build a bond with some, our home group has to split and I lose those regular contacts. My kids are also not happy about that split as they, too, are sad about missing friends.
I finally realized that part of my problem is that I don't have a point of release. Without exercise or laughter or girls' nights, my stress levels have only been rising and never falling.
So I am trying hard to make changes. A short workout video at home that is quite tough so lots of endorphin release for minimal time commitment. More attempts to build simple friendships into stronger ones. A devotional journal by my bed for every day - including those days when my regular (or irregular) quiet times were interrupted repeatedly by little wants and needs.
Still trying to find a way to plug into a women's group, to explain to my kids why we have to be the ones to start a new home group, to fill up while giving out so much, to laugh more!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Looking Forward to 2010
Just a few of the things I want to do in 2010:
Laugh more
Find an outlet for stress and time to enjoy whatever that is!
Say "just a minute" to my kids way less than I do now
Let my hair grow long again
Organize my daily schedule a little better
Get up earlier/stay up later (I haven't decided yet which one would be more beneficial)
Happy New Year!
Looking Back On 2009
Looking back on 2009, some of the most memorable parts:
Ben's chipped tooth is continuing to break away to nothing. The kid hits his mouth every time he falls and one of his front teeth is taking the brunt of it. The first bad crack came about 15 months ago when it broke off to the root. Now it is so dead and brittle that it is breaking off little by little. There's not much left now but the root! I think I want to have it pulled - it looks so bad right now. But he's the sweetest thing, talking all the time about everything!
Chad and I worked hard on our patio this spring, spreading gravel and sand and then laying brick pavers. It was such a slow process working with the kids around, but now that it's finished we love it!
Annie finally started walking in late November. She was cruising so much at 9 months that I thought for sure she would be our earliest walker. Wouldn't you know it, she was the latest at a full 14 months, maybe more by the time she was really stable on her feet! She loves to walk now, though. Oh and she still climbs on everything!
Aaron made his first true vertical climb at Seneca Rocks with my brother and sister-in-law, Josh and Betsy. He climbed about 100 feet! What an accomplishment!
Katie did not enjoy swim lessons, but now she can swim! Before summer she wouldn't even put her face under and she left claw marks on your shoulders if you took her in the pool. Now she dives (aka belly flops) in and swims several strokes without hesitation!
Ben's chipped tooth is continuing to break away to nothing. The kid hits his mouth every time he falls and one of his front teeth is taking the brunt of it. The first bad crack came about 15 months ago when it broke off to the root. Now it is so dead and brittle that it is breaking off little by little. There's not much left now but the root! I think I want to have it pulled - it looks so bad right now. But he's the sweetest thing, talking all the time about everything!
Chad and I worked hard on our patio this spring, spreading gravel and sand and then laying brick pavers. It was such a slow process working with the kids around, but now that it's finished we love it!
Annie finally started walking in late November. She was cruising so much at 9 months that I thought for sure she would be our earliest walker. Wouldn't you know it, she was the latest at a full 14 months, maybe more by the time she was really stable on her feet! She loves to walk now, though. Oh and she still climbs on everything!
Aaron made his first true vertical climb at Seneca Rocks with my brother and sister-in-law, Josh and Betsy. He climbed about 100 feet! What an accomplishment!
Katie did not enjoy swim lessons, but now she can swim! Before summer she wouldn't even put her face under and she left claw marks on your shoulders if you took her in the pool. Now she dives (aka belly flops) in and swims several strokes without hesitation!
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